Boston....

I was thinking about school earlier. I really don't know what I'm going to do with all my friends from PVA. Syliva, Teri, Erica, Ashlee, Jarvis, Wes, Adam, Cara, LaTrice, David, Aaron... the list goes on and on... I don't know... I guess I'm just really scared. I know that I'm going to miss everybody so much. things aren't even going to be the same. Somehting inside me wishes that I could stay here and be with people I know and love but i know that if I don't go know I'll never go.
After I thought about school forever, JM crossed my mind. It's pathetic really. I'm pathetic. I miss him so much. I could talk to him about almost everything and feel better when he made me laugh about it. Every time I go some where, there's always something that reminds me of him. It gets me every time. Syliva and Teri used to say how we needed to just get together and be done with it. Damn I miss Teri. She was my comic relief. Syliva's at work and later with Juan. Time just passes by so quickly. Here I am and the summer is almost over. Orientation is coming up. I can't wait to get my year book... and see people that I'm not going to see for another 6 months to a year. I guess what I'm really afraid of is losing friendships that I worked so hard to have and keep. I don't want that to go away. Some of them probably will but I don't think that I'll take it very well.
Our friendship mean everything to me. Best Friends are what lasts forever. A piece of me doesn't want to part with that.
Maybe it's deeper than that. I think I don't want people to forget about me. I want them to remember. I don't want to be left alone in the end. I know that I'll always have Teri and Syliva and Brittany. But I don't want other to forget who I am. I deserve about fate better than that. Or maybe I'm just going crazy......